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ME- magically enter the world in 20MAR
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我- we aren't perfect (plsbearwme)
sometimes i dun even know myself.

i- Appreciate how I've make it thus far in my life~

快樂不再那麼簡單-重要的是我们如何拥有那一段

my beloved father left the world on July 7, 2014. The pain of lost is forever but he'll be in my heart. papa, i love you.

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Saturday, April 25, 2026 @ 2:30 AM

peace out?

today he approached to make peace.

well, outcome is i do feel better because i get to express but during the process i would say... partially conversation also became him saying about me - eg. how i also attitude him etc. why now he attitude cannot...

i'm like. hello! excuse me who is the one unhappy now. and its incident based now. i dont go say FU.

anyway, mixed feeling after.
not sure how to feel about it but ya... i guess working things out better than not trying.

but then now i'm here because i feel sour again. went bath room. empty toilet paper... dont see any top-up.
then i felt like... its very much mostly me topping up automatically? hand soap, toilet paper, tissue paper, kitchen towel. wash clothes.

feel like he would do it BUT feel 2 very different habit ppl here and i bo tahan because i'm more of the auto person. easy for someone not auto to say "just top up loh, wats the big deal" - i can image him saying this.

anyway. time to sleep.

Tuesday, April 21, 2026 @ 12:29 AM

grey

i feel my future very grey.

economic stress
inflation stress
lifestyle stress
marriage stress
child upbringing stress

Monday, April 20, 2026 @ 11:41 PM

what is ur problem

20 April. approximate 11.10pm

so i shared videos i came across on IG on some advice on how to hold babies.
then he suddenly qns me: "why u send all these. whats the purpose, telling me i'm wrong in how i hold baby? u know it contradict with some vids i see. u know when shower, we also dont hold... u know u say don't sit straight but... so when u send me this, wat do you mean... ... ..." come on. even ur mom, dad, grandma also say don't keep letting her sit straight before 6M. so i bother to verify with doc becos i see she likes to sit up but i am concern if its ok hence i double check, not assume.

seriously.
i'm so tired, shut down. he can easily just talk me down like he is the boss, qns my intention...

i really have much to say but i'm tired. the thought of him gonna !@$#%$^$ is something i dont want to deal with. but the urge of saying about the sitting up before 6M is something i really having a hard time holding back.

when i'm finally slightly moved on with what happened that day on "FK U WANT TO PICK A FIGHT" his attitude happened again. am i so easy now, he can feel so comfortable & easy to reprimand?

morning also. bring us to wrong location... ownself pek chek then i also somewhat kanna the fire -.-

I should have left in 2019. i knew things are not right for us. i qns it before but i thought things were better... .... it did and he never really was so impatience but now... ...

Sunday, April 19, 2026 @ 8:02 AM

potty

i only realise this last yr & strongly this yr - I had been the one actively cleaning up the potty.

for the last 3 yrs+, there were only just 4-6 cat peed on bed incidents where i was actively cleaning twice a day. for sure once in the afternoon and 1 at night before i shower.

but just last year, at least 3 times and in last 4 months, at least 4 times. jealousy of a newborn? how do you explain before it was born. he may be jealous but he would be attracting ur attention then to peed on bed. my take is because potty is dirty. maybe not very dirty but it is consider dirty to our pet?? but someone just rather take the chance & continue clean once a day than try an alternative & clean it twice a day?

oh well, he just cant remb. oh well, he just prefer it his way.

anyway, had enough so i'm back in the picture... i'll clean once at night (thought i dont have to do this chore post pp) assuming he cleans once in the day.

PS: past 3yrs+, approx 4 times was when i was away in the day... coming back to realise pet had peed in bed. ya, i think there was like 1-2 when potty was not that dirty but you see that's only 1-2 time in last 3 yrs+. not that i want to put this on the person but how can you not think this way given the statistic.

Thursday, April 16, 2026 @ 10:03 PM

sour de hunyin

hi. never did i expect to return to this space but life hasn't been going the right way and i need an outlet.

so many times, countless time i want to leave because this is not healthy.
how can ONE cant swallow his pride and rather make his point across or make sure he wins an argument when you are pregnant - like for godsake. when you want to scold an old lady or child etc, you might think twice given the vulnerability?

BUT no, the person who i signed-up to spend a lifetime tgt did not and chose to continue a fight fiercely. I wonder what/ how would he think if someone treat his daughter as such.

I was crying crying crying many times. broken.
only the 3rd quarrel when it was so bad that it gave him a scare that he backed down. red flag isnt it.

That's not the end! 3rd day postpartrum, another huge blow up because he felt wrongly accused. POWER. Me on the sick bed, after a surgery, after giving birth, feeling stress. he once again, cannot swallow watever it is but rather tell me off saying i'm unappreciative. then i was there feeling pitiful.

then there was a number of huge argument within 4 months after giving birth. can you imagine.

another one that is fking triggering was on 7/8 April. Where he shouted F YOU WANT TO PICK A FIGHT ISIT. while he is holding on to daughter and all i did was walking away and murmuring #$#%#5 because i was fking annoyed he gave me attitude early in the morning but i didnt want to pick a fight ftf hence the murmur but he caught it and decided to shout... yap, once again rather pick a fight. he did apologise but i feel its like a nature for him to shout at me now. isn't it scary. i still have at least 30yrs to go if lucky... how to deal with it. i cant, i know what to do but its definitely not an easy step.

i had enough. u are the unappreciative person here.
think u better?!

setting a bad example for me.

Friday, April 19, 2019 @ 1:55 AM

知己

原来有时甚至我还是一个人。。。

Friday, March 08, 2019 @ 8:13 PM

8 March 2019 - Life

Somehow i got reminded of this blog and decided to revisit it again.

Didn't logout of my account since 2016 and here's my first post after many years.

How are you guys?

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Saturday, April 25, 2026 @ 2:30 AM peace out? today he approached to make peace. well, outcome is i do feel better because i get to express but during the process i would say... partially conversation also became him saying about me - eg. how i also attitude him etc. why now he attitude cannot... i'm like. hello! excuse me who is the one unhappy now. and its incident based now. i dont go say FU. anyway, mixed feeling after. not sure how to feel about it but ya... i guess working things out better than not trying. but then now i'm here because i feel sour again. went bath room. empty toilet paper... dont see any top-up. then i felt like... its very much mostly me topping up automatically? hand soap, toilet paper, tissue paper, kitchen towel. wash clothes. feel like he would do it BUT feel 2 very different habit ppl here and i bo tahan because i'm more of the auto person. easy for someone not auto to say "just top up loh, wats the big deal" - i can image him saying this. anyway. time to sleep. back to top?
Tuesday, April 21, 2026 @ 12:29 AM grey i feel my future very grey. economic stress inflation stress lifestyle stress marriage stress child upbringing stress back to top?
Monday, April 20, 2026 @ 11:41 PM what is ur problem 20 April. approximate 11.10pm so i shared videos i came across on IG on some advice on how to hold babies. then he suddenly qns me: "why u send all these. whats the purpose, telling me i'm wrong in how i hold baby? u know it contradict with some vids i see. u know when shower, we also dont hold... u know u say don't sit straight but... so when u send me this, wat do you mean... ... ..." come on. even ur mom, dad, grandma also say don't keep letting her sit straight before 6M. so i bother to verify with doc becos i see she likes to sit up but i am concern if its ok hence i double check, not assume. seriously. i'm so tired, shut down. he can easily just talk me down like he is the boss, qns my intention... i really have much to say but i'm tired. the thought of him gonna !@$#%$^$ is something i dont want to deal with. but the urge of saying about the sitting up before 6M is something i really having a hard time holding back. when i'm finally slightly moved on with what happened that day on "FK U WANT TO PICK A FIGHT" his attitude happened again. am i so easy now, he can feel so comfortable & easy to reprimand? morning also. bring us to wrong location... ownself pek chek then i also somewhat kanna the fire -.- I should have left in 2019. i knew things are not right for us. i qns it before but i thought things were better... .... it did and he never really was so impatience but now... ... back to top?
Sunday, April 19, 2026 @ 8:02 AM potty i only realise this last yr & strongly this yr - I had been the one actively cleaning up the potty. for the last 3 yrs+, there were only just 4-6 cat peed on bed incidents where i was actively cleaning twice a day. for sure once in the afternoon and 1 at night before i shower. but just last year, at least 3 times and in last 4 months, at least 4 times. jealousy of a newborn? how do you explain before it was born. he may be jealous but he would be attracting ur attention then to peed on bed. my take is because potty is dirty. maybe not very dirty but it is consider dirty to our pet?? but someone just rather take the chance & continue clean once a day than try an alternative & clean it twice a day? oh well, he just cant remb. oh well, he just prefer it his way. anyway, had enough so i'm back in the picture... i'll clean once at night (thought i dont have to do this chore post pp) assuming he cleans once in the day. PS: past 3yrs+, approx 4 times was when i was away in the day... coming back to realise pet had peed in bed. ya, i think there was like 1-2 when potty was not that dirty but you see that's only 1-2 time in last 3 yrs+. not that i want to put this on the person but how can you not think this way given the statistic. back to top?
Thursday, April 16, 2026 @ 10:03 PM sour de hunyin hi. never did i expect to return to this space but life hasn't been going the right way and i need an outlet. so many times, countless time i want to leave because this is not healthy. how can ONE cant swallow his pride and rather make his point across or make sure he wins an argument when you are pregnant - like for godsake. when you want to scold an old lady or child etc, you might think twice given the vulnerability? BUT no, the person who i signed-up to spend a lifetime tgt did not and chose to continue a fight fiercely. I wonder what/ how would he think if someone treat his daughter as such. I was crying crying crying many times. broken. only the 3rd quarrel when it was so bad that it gave him a scare that he backed down. red flag isnt it. That's not the end! 3rd day postpartrum, another huge blow up because he felt wrongly accused. POWER. Me on the sick bed, after a surgery, after giving birth, feeling stress. he once again, cannot swallow watever it is but rather tell me off saying i'm unappreciative. then i was there feeling pitiful. then there was a number of huge argument within 4 months after giving birth. can you imagine. another one that is fking triggering was on 7/8 April. Where he shouted F YOU WANT TO PICK A FIGHT ISIT. while he is holding on to daughter and all i did was walking away and murmuring #$#%#5 because i was fking annoyed he gave me attitude early in the morning but i didnt want to pick a fight ftf hence the murmur but he caught it and decided to shout... yap, once again rather pick a fight. he did apologise but i feel its like a nature for him to shout at me now. isn't it scary. i still have at least 30yrs to go if lucky... how to deal with it. i cant, i know what to do but its definitely not an easy step. i had enough. u are the unappreciative person here. think u better?! setting a bad example for me. back to top?
Friday, April 19, 2019 @ 1:55 AM 知己原来有时甚至我还是一个人。。。 back to top?
Friday, March 08, 2019 @ 8:13 PM 8 March 2019 - Life Somehow i got reminded of this blog and decided to revisit it again. Didn't logout of my account since 2016 and here's my first post after many years. How are you guys? back to top?

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